To my sweetest Connor,
I can hardly believe that you are 18 months old already. Wasn’t it just yesterday that we were bringing your tiny little self home for the very first time? Wasn’t it just yesterday when I was standing in our hospital room, minutes before leaving to take you home, gazing out the window and thinking about how unworthy I am to be holding such a perfect little baby that I can call my own and thinking about how we are about to embark in one of the craziest adventures called parenthood? I remember having NO idea what to expect. Like, none. There is no question that I felt an inexpressible joy, but I felt almost an equal amount of fear. Would I be a great mom? Would you love me? Would I be able to teach and show you all about God’s love, and more importantly, would you care? What are the things you would be passionate about someday? There were SO many things racing through my mind in those minutes before we left to go out into the “real world”, but I was so ready to turn the page and begin this new chapter of our lives. As each day passes, I am still blown away how you truly are everything we prayed for and MORE. When I was pregnant, I prayed every single day (without fail) that you would be a happy, healthy, and super snuggly baby, and you are 100% of all of those things. You LOVE to snuggle, all the time, and I stinking love it. You feel so comforted in Daddy and I’s arms and it brings us so much joy. You are also one of the happiest little guys I have ever seen! (Well, most of the time at least…) For being 18 months old, you are so full of personality and incredibly smart. You love to play peek-a-boo and hide and go seek. You looooooove it when Daddy throws you as high up in the air as he can (even though I stand there terrified), and you think that being tickled is one of the funniest things ever. You are definitely becoming a master at climbing anything and everything you can get your hands and feet on. You are beginning to be more independent, and even though it’s a little bittersweet, it’s so fun watching your confidence grow as you turn into a “big kid”. You are terrified of the blender, the vacuum cleaner, and the little puppet dragon on Baby Einstein. The washing machine fascinates you, and I whole heartedly believe you could stand there for hours and watch it go round and round. Bath time hands down is your most favorite time of day, in fact we have to be careful because any time we mention the word “bath” you are already knocking at the bathroom door ready to jump in and are so disappointed if it’s not actually bath time yet. You are a boy after your mama’s heart, and love big dogs, even if they trample you and lick your face. I can’t wait to see the child you turn into as the days and years go by, and I can’t tell you how grateful we are to have you in our lives. I truly am so undeserving! I love you SO much and thank God everyday for you, and my biggest hope is that someday you will have a whole-hearted devotion to Him as well.
Thank you for being our everything.